My absolute favourite things about being a parent to my children (despite child loss).

I’ve given this a lot of thought over the last few years. We lost our eldest child to cancer when he was 6 years old (months away from his 7th birthday). Kookie was 4 and Dookie was 18 months old. I guess you could say I was in a state of limbo as a mother. All of the rules had changed, the world had become unrecognisable to me in the same way as a cheating husband would appear to his wife. I had been cheated out of my little boy, and so had the people that I loved the most.

Life happens and all you really have is what you can see and feel…..right now. With that emphasis, here are some of my favourite things about being mum to KookieDookie. 

I love the way that they argue. Sometimes I let the back and forth bickering go on a few minutes longer because I love to hear them.

I really like drying their faces after a wash. To be able to feel the contours of their face, brush across their eyebrows and see their bright and beautiful, sparkling eyes close up.

When they call me Mummy.   There is nothing more recognisable than being called for by that name. It is the sweetest sound and I am so glad that I get to hear it every single day.

I love knowing that they have their own lives separate from me. I love being a spectator. I get to watch as they take their first steps towards new adventures with each passing school year. I get to watch their friendships blossom and their brains grow.

I love that they look to me to make things better. Physical pain, emotional pain, just generally being tired, hungry or both. They know that I will fix it. I dread the time when I cannot.

I would feel honoured if you would share your favourite things about being a mum/dad. I would really love to read them! 



20 Mini toad in the hole’s for £3.09 (95%pork) 

  • Not only does this clear plates, it is so easy and very quick to cook (15-20mins).

Edit: We had ours tonight with Broccolli, peas and some mashed potato (a splash of gravy as an extra treat).

Mini Toad in the hole x 20

To buy: 95% pork sausages x 10 from Lidl. £3.09

From our cupboard/fridge: 4 eggs whisked, 360ml milk, 160grams plain flour, 1 level teaspoon baking powder, a pinch of salt, vegetable oil.


1.Pre-heat the oven to 220 degrees/gas mark 7. Poor a drop of oil in every hole in your muffin tray and wipe it all over the insides using the corner of a paper napkin. I even wipe some across the top as these babies will rise!

2. Heat some oil in a frying pan and brown the sausages for 10 minutes turning regularly.

3. Tip the flour, salt, baking powder and whisked eggs into a big mixing bowl. Stir in the milk until it’s the right consistency although with these measurements you could tip the whole lot in as I did!

4. Mix it well with a spoon – if you have some lumps that you can’t get rid of, don’t worry. Mine was the same.

5. Fill the muffin tray to half way in each hollow with the mixture then put half a sausage in the middle of each (picture).

6. Pop it into the preheated oven for 15 minutes! They will be crispy on the top and fluffy underneath (picture below).

I had to cook these in advance as Kookie had a birthday party to go to so I’ll just put them back into the muffin tray, into the oven at the same temperature for 5 mins before serving.